C&: When did you decide to remember what you forgot, and how is this experience developed in your exhibition Trauma is Brazilian?
Castiel Vitorino: It was when I wanted to forget completely. The West calls this experience suicidal thought, and it was that, too, actually: thoughts and emotions of wanting an end to my existence. When my grandfather Benedito passed away in December 2018, I started eating fish and jackfruit again— foods he loved but that I had difficulty eating. Now my grandfather lives on this earthly plane in the form of cravings and he also lives in my feelings of grief and longing, and in my surname, Brasileiro. My paternal great-grandfather was given the name Brasileiro by the owner of the plantation where he lived. In his movements of escape, he built another name for himself: Augusto. Augusto Brasileiro, the name of my father, his grandson. And I made the decision to remember that today, in order to be able to wake up tomorrow and continue to reposition my vitality towards the healing of these traumas, which belong to Brasileiros and Vitorinos. In this project, I’ve collected analog images from my family’s collection and am attaching my experiences to these albums. The experience has been reworked in this way and in other ways as well. It is remembering with my eyes and with my hands what I might forget: the complexity of my existence, of my life.